Finally got this thing working again. After months of trying to log on it finally worked. Not that I have anything to say. We are in the process of moving again. I think we have a thing about change - we like it. So when ever anything starts to get comfy we shake it up. That or we are people that love to create stress in our lives. New baby on the way, house up for sale, relocation of our furry friends to a barn outside of the city and 2 year old. Busy Busy. Well better get going. The 2 year old is a calling.

Wow. It was been awhile. First I will start by explaining that for 6 weeks I had the all nauseousnesses. (my own word) and Yes I am pregnant. After that fun I had a illness pretending to be a cold that lasted 3 weeks. Which Emmet also had. This was our entire Christmas and New Years. And since Christmas I have had a pinched nerve in my back. So to sum up I have not been feeling all that well.

Now I will confess that I am not one of those glowing pregnant women that just adores being pregnant. Pregnancy is one thing for me - some sort of mean waiting line up that take 9 months that is no fun but that ends with a hopefully healthy baby. I love being a Mom. I can make some pretty amazing play-doh snakes and build some crazy lego items. All of which I love doing. But I would prefer to maybe lay an egg and sit on it for a few days and have it hatch. or something. Actually how big would this egg have to be. Maybe not. Ok Maybe I should adopt babies. I actually really do like this option. As there are so many babies out there that need loving homes and as I said before that is what I think I am good at. The adoption process is long, painful and expensive. The fertility method is also long, painful and expensive but less of all the listed items.

But this baby - though we were waiting since July to get into a fertility Doctor - was a well surprise. A good surprise but still a surprise.

So anyway now I am in that stage where I go everyday to stand in my closet and look at all my clothes taunting me as I put on yet again the Yoga pants. I have not had the heart to go shopping for Maternity clothes and all the clothes I wore with Emmet give me the creeps to look at. I wore those clothes for months and wanted nothing more then to get out of them and back into my regular clothes. But I will have to give in and put them on again. Sigh. Double Sigh.

Ok so I do not paint a pretty picture of pregnancy. And I really do try not to loathe the women that wander around glowing and raving about how great pregnancy is. I am lucky to be able to have a child and believe me I know that. I had to try long and hard and take some very nasty drugs to get Emmet - not to mention the heartache. So I do not take it for granted. My body just really does not take to well to pregnancy. The pinched nerve will be with me to the end and so will the pregnancy induced carpal tunnel - just like last time. But in the end I will be glad I did it and would be willing to do it again. Ofcourse do not ask me that when I am having a drug free birth - like with Emmet when all I could think in my head was that I was going to die.

Hope you all had a great holiday. Hope to read your comments soon

Christmas is OK

Since my I hate Christmas rant I have been feeling a little bad.

So here is a list of Christmas things I like
- the tree, all the lights
- food
- more food
- cookies and more cookies
- Christmas Cards all over the house on every possible place you can put one
- visits with my friends

Emmet at the beach by Becca and Trent's house.

Clinging to the beautiful. Holding Emmet just a little tighter. Breathing in the smell of Ginger tea. Embracing all the people in my life past and present and the things they left with me. Hoping that I have left pieces of myself with others as well.

Hoping to have many many great moments left. And if not hoping that Emmet will always some how remember me. That life leave him alone; that he is able to keep that beautiful spririt that he was born with. His joy and his smile for everyone. That his love for everything helps him find his way through dark times and back towards the light.

Shouldn't things be fair

So I had this disagreement with someone who will remain unnamed a few weeks ago. Where they made a comment that has been bothering me ever since. They said " There are givers and takers in the world. The givers should be happy to give; you can't change the takers. Caring and compassionate people (which they were saying I was not) except the Inequalities in the world."

I was always under the impression that caring and compassionate people fought against the inequalities of the world. And that selfish self-centered people excepted the Inequalities because usually they are the people benefiting from them. Imagine what the world would be like if some of the amazing people in the world were caring and compassionate by the unnamed person definition above and buried their heads in the sand instead of fighting to make a change. Instead of fighting for and with people who for any number of reasons are being treated unfairly. Even if it is just standing up for the kid getting bullied in the park, or donating your time or money to a country and people less fortunate then you. Helping in anyway you can. I hope that I never become a "caring and compassionate person that excepts the inequalities in the world".

I am still amazed by their blanket statement and that after a lengthy debate they still believe their statement to be true. I must be missing something. Help

Is Christmas over yet?

Hello lovely ladies that check my blog.

I honestly am short on time these days; and even shorter on witty banter. So sorry to disappoint with a short and grumpy post but I am not all that people friendly at the moment.

Lately actually I am very much trying to avoid people. I am kind of in a people hating sort of mood.

Maybe Christmas just brings out the worst in me. All the time you have to spend with those people that for some reason you have to see once a year at Christmas. What is it about Christmas anyway? I have to say I hate those update letters. If I have not spoken to you all year then am I really someone that you need to send a Christmas letter to. The people that I am close to do not need yearly updates they get them a little more frequently then that.

Ofcourse I do love to get Christmas cards. Keep Hallmark in business and all. But I do like getting non-bills in the mail. It is fun. Ok so I am not a Christmas person. I would much prefer to hide out for the 6 six weeks before Christmas. I wish Christmas would just go AWAY. The tradition at my family’s house is work till you drop from pure exhaustion at about 11:00pm. And then when everyone is really too tired to care and the kids are losing their minds from being over tired and having to much sugar we all quickly tear open the gifts and head home. Sound fun to you??

Ok Last year did have some fun Christmas moments. Emmet loved the tree thing. He loved it when the lights were on and wanted them on all day. And being a good active 1 year old at the time he liked to take every ornament off the tree and play with them. This year should have some good moments too. Emmet does have a way of bringing excitement into everything. I have never seen anyone have as much fun doing little things as he does. Did you buy my attempt at a good attitude.....