Wow. It was been awhile. First I will start by explaining that for 6 weeks I had the all nauseousnesses. (my own word) and Yes I am pregnant. After that fun I had a illness pretending to be a cold that lasted 3 weeks. Which Emmet also had. This was our entire Christmas and New Years. And since Christmas I have had a pinched nerve in my back. So to sum up I have not been feeling all that well.

Now I will confess that I am not one of those glowing pregnant women that just adores being pregnant. Pregnancy is one thing for me - some sort of mean waiting line up that take 9 months that is no fun but that ends with a hopefully healthy baby. I love being a Mom. I can make some pretty amazing play-doh snakes and build some crazy lego items. All of which I love doing. But I would prefer to maybe lay an egg and sit on it for a few days and have it hatch. or something. Actually how big would this egg have to be. Maybe not. Ok Maybe I should adopt babies. I actually really do like this option. As there are so many babies out there that need loving homes and as I said before that is what I think I am good at. The adoption process is long, painful and expensive. The fertility method is also long, painful and expensive but less of all the listed items.

But this baby - though we were waiting since July to get into a fertility Doctor - was a well surprise. A good surprise but still a surprise.

So anyway now I am in that stage where I go everyday to stand in my closet and look at all my clothes taunting me as I put on yet again the Yoga pants. I have not had the heart to go shopping for Maternity clothes and all the clothes I wore with Emmet give me the creeps to look at. I wore those clothes for months and wanted nothing more then to get out of them and back into my regular clothes. But I will have to give in and put them on again. Sigh. Double Sigh.

Ok so I do not paint a pretty picture of pregnancy. And I really do try not to loathe the women that wander around glowing and raving about how great pregnancy is. I am lucky to be able to have a child and believe me I know that. I had to try long and hard and take some very nasty drugs to get Emmet - not to mention the heartache. So I do not take it for granted. My body just really does not take to well to pregnancy. The pinched nerve will be with me to the end and so will the pregnancy induced carpal tunnel - just like last time. But in the end I will be glad I did it and would be willing to do it again. Ofcourse do not ask me that when I am having a drug free birth - like with Emmet when all I could think in my head was that I was going to die.

Hope you all had a great holiday. Hope to read your comments soon